Bênça, mãe. Another mother's day without you. Officially, the second, but because here in the UK mother's day is in March, this is actually my fourth. A bit "cruel", if I may say. After all, I'm an "orphan of mother" and it hurts. And it will hurt, no matter how old I get, no matter how many ... READ the POST
Merry Christmas, Mother
Bênça, mãe! It's the first Christmas without you. Strange that this time, it was not being physically far from you that hurt the most. We hadn't spent Christmas together for over 5 years... but every year I could wish you a happy Christmas and hear your voice giving me your blessing. This year, ... READ the POST
The day I finally buried you…
Bênça, mãe! I know it's been a long time, but lots of things have happened in these last two months. We're in our new house, but I'll write about that later. What I have to tell you today is that.... ...today I finally buried you.... Please, don't take this the wrong way... You know how ... READ the POST
Three months without you, mother…
Bênça, mãe! Three months without you today... But after a week of crying and desperately longing for you, I got great news today. Again, for the third time (3 monthly anniversaries), something good happened on the 13th of the month. I have a hunch that it's your own way of making me smile ... READ the POST
Cardiff, 15th March 2013
Bênça, mãe! I’m on the train on my way to work. I’m missing you so much! I have your Tic Tac box in my hand and I’m holding it so tight, as if I could touch your hand. I remember you always used to offer us your Tic Tacs and I never wanted any. Well, there you go… I have them in my had very often ... READ the POST
Amsterdam, 6th March 2013.
Bênça, mãe! It’s been three weeks today you’re gone… L And I was on a plane again today. To Amsterdam. This time with Craig. Trying to hide. Trying to run away from thinking about you, looking at your face in the photographs and remembering that you’re dead. Yeah… D-E-A-D. DEAD. Today, on the ... READ the POST